Monday, January 24, 2011

Telling a Story With Ornaments

Still behind. Our Christmas tree, sans ornaments, is STILL up in our living room. Oh well, that’s how we roll! Anyway, this post has been floating in my head since the beginning of December!


Ornaments tell a story. For that reason, ornaments are one of my favorite gifts to receive from family and friends. I’m a sucker for mementos anyway (just ask my husband or mom). Ornaments make wonderful mementos, pulled out of boxes year after year, attached to some memory: a new house, a trip to Notr.e Da.me for a football game, etc.

I still have ornaments from my days as a high school youth minister, an elementary school student, or even a preschooler (don’t worry, I’ll spare you the latter). My husband still has the plush Tig.ger ornament I gave him the first Christmas we began dating. I also have many childhood ornaments, including a plush velvet stocking from one of my early Christmases. Since starting a family (which began on our wedding day, not the day we became pregnant), the ornaments have also told a story:

First Christmas together, 2006:


Last year (December 2009) I decided to make an ornament to remember my journey (at the time) towards adoption. I even chose the South Korean flag colors as the background. While painting the ornament with fellow blogger Molly, I thought about holding a sweet Korean baby in my arms the following Christmas.



That same year, the IF blogsphere began a prayer buddy effort. My Advent Prayer buddy was In All Things Good, who also started a blog called D.C. Baby. She sent me this beautiful hand woven basket ornament from somewhere in Africa. Inside, she enclosed a handwritten note containing a prayer asking God to send me a child.

2009 came, thankfully, to an end. 2010 arrived and became one of the most exciting years of my life. Around mid-December, I finally hung the ornaments on the tree, which was a miraculous feat to perform with a newborn in the house. After waiting so long, this was the first ornament that went on the tree:



I also loved this ornament at the mall:



Not surprisingly, the “waiting for baby” ornament hung nearby. I plan to arrange those two ornaments likewise next year. The “waiting” ornaments will always remain a powerful reminder of the long journey it took for KB to come into our lives. Perhaps in a future Christmas she will understand their story. I think infertility should never be forgotten. Amid the whirlwind of KB’s arrival, the ornaments became a powerful memory of sorrowful days past that now point to the gift known as Katie Beth. As an added bonus, my Advent prayer buddy gave birth to her baby boy 2 weeks after KB.

I don’t know what additional ornaments we will have on the tree in December 2011. But I know the story will continue…

Friday, January 7, 2011

Prayer buddy reveal and a miracle to report

I am WAY behind.  Some of our friends and family are only now receiving Christmas cards.  Oh well, better late than never, eh? (the "eh" is a shout out to a certain Canadian IF friend).  This past Advent I was honored to pray for Hope and Faith, a delightful blogger traversing through PCOS among other things.  She has a wonderful husband and stepson to support her along the journey.  I especially admire her perseverance, which I am especially lacking these days.

Also, among the many miracles that have occurred in the blogosphere (A Complicated Life, yea!), one happened to a friend for whom I've been hoping and praying for a long time.  Her past 3 pregnancies have ended in miscarriage, the most recent happening this past spring.  Her faithfulness to God and ability to keep going amid crippling sorrow never ceases to amaze me.  PLEASE add her to your prayer list.  I am so longing to one day share in their joy at a baptism of a child, rather than its funeral (I've been to the last 2).

In thinking about the community on the IF blogosphere and the recent miracles, this verse really exemplifies the wonderful bloggers and lurkers:

Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep.  --Romans 12:15

Sunday, January 2, 2011

So Thankful

I am so thankful and so tired from 2 weeks of Christmas, KB's baptism, and a wedding of 2 dear friends.  So instead of attempting to write a coherent, thoughtful treatise, I will use pictures instead. 

A few days before Christmas, this wonderful surprise package arrived from KB's blogger aunties.  Thank you so much!!   The IF blogging community is awesome!


Then my Advent prayer buddy, Shoved to Them, sent a most wonderful (and appropriate, considering the title of this blog) gift from Mystic Monks Coffee.  Here's KB sniffing the bag, contemplating when she will get to drink her first cup of coffee someday...

(KB's onesie was a gift from a friend of my dad's.  http://www.poshsprouts.etsy.com/)  

At Christmas, for the first time since my wedding, the families of my husband and me were gathered together.  We celebrated Christmas Day at our house.  Of course, KB had no shortage of arms to hold her.  As a bonus, the California/Oregon contingent got to experience a white Christmas for the very first time! (nota bene: we didn't take a picture on Christmas Day so I'm using one from the baptism instead)




Snowman or snow-woman?  Hey, we had powdery snow and a thin layer of it to work with. :)

KB was baptized on Dec. 27th, wearing the Barrett family gown worn by me, my mom, and my sister.  To finally have a baby in our arms, bringing her to the church for baptism, and having so many of our family and friends present was such a gift.




Me crying during the blessing of the mother.  I wanted to ask the deacon, "Are you really talking to me?  Is this real?" Two of the members of the SHE group attended the baptism, which really touched my heart.

Finally, I'm grateful for the gift of Katie Beth's life, and for all of you readers/bloggers.  2010 was quite a year, and I continue to hope and pray that God will bring blessings upon you and your families in 2011.  And as always, pray for those still waiting...

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas

On this Christmas Eve, the best and brightest in a long time, I am thankful for all of my blogger friends and readers who have walked with me through 2010. Merry Christmas and may God bless all of you.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

You know you're behind in blogging when...

On Faceb.ook, I asked a friend where she got her peppermint bark recipe.  She told me it came from my a wonderful commenter on my recent blogpost.  Oops.  I'm on Face.book a lot more now because I can read it onehanded via my ip.od t.ouch.  But my laptop is a bit harder to manuever around a baby.  So many thoughts have simmered over the past few weeks, especially as Christmas approaches.  :)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Shutterfly Card...

I'm coming out of the blurr briefly to pass along my pick for the cutest card from Shutterfly.  We plan to send out copious birth announcements/Christmas cards with a Shutterfly card as well.

My favorite is this one: the Good Blessings card.  The combo of Christian graphics and simple pictures really appeals to me.

Shutterfly is offering 50 Free Cards if you post about your favorite of their new Christmas Card designs.  Thanks to the bloggers who gave me the heads up about this!!

p.s.  Now if only someone could find a way to convince Willia.m Sono.ma to lower their exorbitant price of $26 for a pound of their addictive peppermint bark.

post p.s.  It's been a tough week home and the baby has been cranky.  Will write more soon.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Belated Birth Announcement & Coming out of the blurr

Many, many thanks for your loving comments and prayers in my last post.  Quite literally, I felt as if my hospital room and operating room were bathed in prayer.  From the beginning of my birth experience, starting with the midwife telling me to go to the hospital instead of my house to the C-Section, to having to give up nursing (hence, the blurr of this week), it's been clear that things have been outside of my control.  Infertility definitely taught me that concept. 

I felt very priveledged to pray for you and your intentions.  There were plenty of opportunities beyond the IV.  Even the epidural caused its share of pain and I wasn't even in labor to appreciate its benefits. :P  After the picture below, I'll share some of the brief highlights and lowlights of the birth and subsequent week.  So if this is not a good day to read about such details, now is a good place to stop.  Thanks for your prayers!

Kath.erine Eliza.beth, aka K.atie Be.th, was born safely via C-Section on 11/11/10 at 5:25pm.  6lbs, 10 oz.  Here's one of the pics from the hospital.


Most surprising moment: "You're going to have a baby in the next couple days." -the midwife.  Second most surprising moment: the hospital had incredible food.  Really!

Most uncomfortable chairs on the planet:  The recliner my husband slept in next to my bed.

Most ironic decision: the C-Section:  After spotting very, very dangerously low amniotic fluid in my ultrasound (indicated that the placenta had shut down), the midwife gave me two choices: C-Section or endure a full day of induction, followed by another day of labor, which could still end up in a C-Section.  I knew that my baby wasn't ready to come out yet; that day the midwife found out I had dilated to 1 cm.  No contractions.  My husband and I were afraid of the stress labor would cause to the baby. 

Most confirmation that it was the right decision: During the C-Section the doctor discovered that the baby had the cord wrapped around her neck 2 times.

Most random comment during surgery: (as I lay on the table, somehow coherent) "I've heard some animals eat their placenta."  The doctor answered, "I hear there's a recipe book for making food items out of placenta, including a recipe for placenta pizza."  A collective "GROSS!" rose up from the room of doctors and nursers.

Most motivation during painful moments: thinking about all of my IF friends and getting the baby out.

Most touching moment: hearing the baby's first cry.  Also, the hospital photographer took some cute photos of the baby and put them in a power point slide show along with background music.  The pictures caused me to start crying, because they made me realize fully the extent of this little miracle.  My husband started to cry too.  In disbelief, the photographer asked, "Oh no, is it because you don't like the photos?"  We assured her that we did and that our tears were happy ones, due to our long wait for a baby.  If that didn't convince her, the fact that we bought a photo package did. :)

Most numbing drugs: OK, this is really hilarious, but the anesthesiologist at this particular hospital is known for his VERY numbing epidurals.  He even gave me some medicine to relax after the baby was born, so much so that I slept through the last 45 minutes of surgery (probably a good thing).  The nurses call his epidurals by his last name.

Most awesome support: All the labor/delivery nurses and mother-baby nurses were incredible.  They enjoyed the candy that I brought for them. Also, my midwife who has been working with me the past 9 months participated in the surgery.  She even held my shoulders and hands while the doctor did the epidural.

Most missed people: my parents in California.  We sky.ped with them after the birth/recovery, but they were missed. 

Biggest surprise:  Recovering from the C-Section went very well.  I was able to walk around 2 days after the surgery.  By the time we went home I felt strong enough to walk around.  The pain pills helped tremendously.

Biggest letdown: I had hoped to nurse from the get-go.  But our baby did not gain enough weight and my milk came in slowly.  We had to supplement briefly with formula.  But even before that, she began to have issues with nursing.  I've had the lactation consultant at my house two days in a row! From what we can gather, my positioning etc. is fine but the baby just doesn't want to nurse.  She screams and fights me every single time.  This had been a long-time wish of mine to do and it was CRUSHINGLY painful to have to give it up after a week.  I'm still pumping but we have to supplement.  I'm not going to get into the arguments of formula vs. nursing (both are worthy options and a personal decision); once again, it's hard to have a deep plan or desire and have to give it up.  Do we see a trend here?

This past week has been very difficult, full of adjustments and loss of sleep.  Despite all of that, we are in awe of our precious little miracle.  The fact that we had to wait so long makes her arrival that much sweeter.  I hope and pray for this moment to come soon for all of you.

Here's me on the front porch sporting the hospital bed hair look.  Yes, that is a St.arbucks cup in my hands; can I help it that my pain pills prescription was filled at a drugstore near my favorite coffee joint?  Don't worry, it's a carmel apple cider.


And finally, this was my favorite picture from the hospital.  If you've made it this far without suffering eye strain from my copious text, kudos to you!! :)

Thanks again for your prayers and encouragement!!  What an awesome community this blogosphere is!